Something great happened :)  I last weekend had run into a friend I hadn't seen in years, and he said he was going to John's house (John is a guy that I had a crush on for awhile, but 16 years ago!)  Well, me being the upfront person that I am, I found John on the net, and now we are going out on a date...Even if he's not "the one," which would be hard to tell after not seeing him since I was around 16-18, but it will be great to catch up with a friend I had lost touch with :)  Isn't it awesome to re-connect to someone who meant something to you :)
All acts of kindness are so remembered :) Wish me luck on my date tonight :)

BB
Francie

 I had an "encounter" with someone who started off, talking about love and so forth...It quickly turned to anger due to the fact, that I refused to endorse something this person "sells" and then, abruptly before I could respond, this person had to get off the phone.

When someone approaces you and discusses love, tantra, and being a light worker, and has just enough knowledge about many things to seem impressive, think again.

Why, would a loving, light worker, SCREAM at someone who has a different opinion??
I am not discrediting this person's idea, nor am I attacking this idea, not yet anway.  It goes against everything I have learned as a licensed professional clinicial counselor, and against all spiritual teachings that I have studied...I am open to very cutting edge ideology, don't get me wrong.

I believe in alternative medicine, I believe in acupuncture, therapeutic message, yoga, chakra balancing, exercise, eating healthy, reiki, meditation, catharsis, free association, and about anything that will help someone feel better...Here's where I would like to be so bold as to insert my professional and spiritual opinion about FAKES...If someone screams at you how powerful they are, they have in essence become an angry child.  If someone tells you that you should PAY them for something you don't want, you didn't ask for, or solicit, then be very VERY wary about talking to the person, and most certainly don't trust them.  On the internet people make wild claims about cures for a variety of things, ask for SCIENTIFIC evidence, and at the very least, MANY testimonials from people who actually purchased a product.

I am excited about the possiblities of EFT, something I just heard of, and study the cutting edge things, I even like the whole, "Secret" and "What the Bleep Do We Know" approach to thinking and feeling.  I believe in the mody-body-spirit connection.

If you ever feel that someone has taken your money, and you have not benefited from it, then I encourage you to contact your state attorney general and/or better business bureau.  I don't like seeing people try to sell *snake oil* with some nice touchy/feely words, which have no evidence nor proof of working....

Finally if someone is so emotionally unbalanced that out of the blue they discuss personal issues you didn't want to have discussed, and think everything is tainted towards what they want to discuss, especially explicit topics (being discussed by someone I have never met in real life, whom I mistakenly trusted, and gave my number to)...I did a tantra/psychic test..This person told me that this person had the ability to psychically "be with me" so I didn't open any chakras, I didn't breathe when the person told me to breathe, yet the person continued..Because it was all about HIM!!  HE wants to talk naughty on the phone, and use his "enlightened tantra" secret as an excuse.  Further, while discussing this, also this person would make outlandish statements such as, "I love you," well YOU DON'T KNOW ME!!!!!  He strongly criticized my religious beliefs and insisted, I purchase a certain product, and I wouldn't, won't and don't care if he becomes a BIZZILIONAIRE, as long as it's not with my money or endorsement....Bad vibes, anger, fear, jealousy, shame, resentment all serve a purpose, they serve to show us where we are emotionally, where we want to be, and sometimes to PROTECT US!  I am not scared of this person, nor am I angry, I am disappointed.

I hate no one, but am becoming annoyed at the lack of tolerance, and I made it quite clear to this person that I wish no more contact with him, and have already changed my number, as well as, let this person know that I will inform the authorities if he continues to harrass me.
So please be careful, and if it sounds too good  to be true it is...Also if in doubt, do a step further, I told my closest friends his name, his number, where I met him, and the threats he had made to me, so in the event he were to be stupid, many people would be looking for him.  By publicly announcing that he is just the man behind the curtain, it takes a little power from the Wanna-Be-Wizard-Of-Oz... 

Have a good day, and be careful :) Never judge a zaadzster by how many friends he or she has, judge them from your instincts, your heart, and your gut, for they hold the truth :)  We all have so many wonderful answers, I support authors, teachers, GIAIAM, and all promoters of Zaadz, this guy isn't any of those.  He is a self-proclaimed many things...Judge for yourself ;)

And if you have the same issues please contact ~C4Chaos, as he is the Guardian Angel of Zaadz, and there are SO MANY good people, that you will get help, and support  :) Be sure you always tell the Zaadz staff if you feel strange about anything. 
~Namaste~

Recently I have introspectively been looking at all the things I didn't like about myself, towards the end of this process I had an illness come over me, it was quite strange, it seemed to be some sort of respiratory problem.  Interestingly, as I distilled my shadow, I learned it wanted to be heard, it wanted me to trust my "gut instincts," and it wanted me to stop ignoring it...I gave my shadow a small light, that it could use, and it told me something that almost made me cry..My shadow reminded me again, that when I was young, and I was in my room with a night light of course, I actually spoke to my shadow, as if it were a guest, as I "grew up," I had nothing to do with such nonsense, however, my shadow liked when I acknowledged it, and wasn't afraid of it...Making peace with my shadow, and the things I don't like about myself is wonderful...Yes, part of it hurts, but I know what I need to change and work on.

I would like to personally thank my Priest, Christohper Penczak, for his time, care, and devotion while I was feeling strange, and not quite understanding what was going on, and he was quite encouraging, and made the process much more smooth, than if I had done it without his help.  I would like to thank every friend I have here for putting up with my bouts of insomnia, my moodiness, and my changes, as it was all part of a process...

I am now going to dive head first into self-healing techniques, while studying my pantheon, and my spirit team/allies/animal totems, etc..   This has been a huge challenge for me, and I hope that I am more refined now than when I started...Ultimately, I also would like to thank my shadow for talking to me, and being ready for some light :)

BB,
Francie

When I was four, I won a "Buddha" from a vending machine. I looked up at my dad and said, "Dad what is this?"  I then remember my dad saying, "That is a God, that other people believe in."  I said, "Oh."  I didn't know there was any "other God, that other people believed in."  I remember taking it out, and setting it down carefully on the carpet, I looked down at that plastic smile beaming up at me, and felt that I must pay it some type of respect.

I placed my hands in prayer position next to my heart, and I looked down at the Buddha again...I then prayed out loud, "Dear Buddha, please come visit me someday at my house, when I am big."  My dad over heard this and grabbed the Buddha, while I was still kneeling.
He told me he would "Burn it."  He also told me, "We don't pray to other Gods."  With tears streaming down my face, "I said, please don't hurt it daddy, I promise I won't ever pray to it again, just don't hurt him."

Needless to say, that Buddha is gone, but the impact lived with me my entire life.  Everyday when I walk by one of my beatiful Buddha's, I love it, so much, and find the value of all living things more profound, because of what I knew in my heart at age 4, and that's that, Buddha was alive, is alive, and will remain alive...(Even though I thought I was his death penalty)..

Now, in life, I appreciate, every second, every person, good, bad, otherwise, it all is what it is, and we are all taught lessons to be learned...I am so grateful for the lesson my dad taught me that day...It was priceless, and timeless..

Blessed Be,
Francie

I would just like to say I am grateful for my health, for my friends, and most importantly for honesty.  I am grateful that I have the chance to network, and look for the enlightenment to find another place, where I can be free.  A place where I am unconditionally accepted, and I know it exists in my heart, and I will find it in the real world.  I am very inspired and excited about my dream...I know it will happen, and I know I will move...I just don't know the when and the where...
I did accomplish some goals since joining Zaadz, I learned that meeting my hero, was so worth a 14 hour drive ;)  I learned that every second with someone you love is endless, and I learned how to discern the people out there who actually care, and want to contribute to society, versus, the social vampire, who wants to control and manipulate a person into getting what is in that person's higher good with no regards to others.  I am glad there are very few social vampires, and I am glad how easy it is for me to spot them ;)
My friends mean everything to me....And if you are reading this, then you know, I am grateful for you...
Francie

It seems in the business and business of life we are far too entangled trying to reach things that are out of reach, and sometimes even un-necessary.  Who wants to mindlessly follow what everyone else does or says?  I think people have to search for their truth, their reality, and find themselves.  We can't be defined by the roles we have, or the titles we are given, I think we are more defined by every action we take, and the actions that we do not take.  I have heard a lot of people say, a lot of things, but only few ACT on what they say, (this of course, does not apply to Zaadster,s cause that is why we are here)...I am very inspired to see all of you out there trying to make the world a better place...I am greatful for this moment, and reading your profiles.  These seems like an awesome community...Thanks for the time you share!  Have a great day, and great minutes!!!